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Scared Sam
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Author: sAMsKi on August 07 2007
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--> oh dear. been working on my liveset for a while now. meant to be playing my first proper public gig in September but i am scared. so many other people on here seem to just go for it and i want to, but i am struggling with it. i'd like to play at a STFU too but that scares me just the same.

it's all pretty odd because i have run my own company for nearly 9 years now and i have no worries talking to anyone, no matter how big / famous / important to us they are - even cold calling and shit - which all takes big bollocks.....but playing a gig in front of a few people scares me stiff. in fact in general i can talk to anyone and i aint a geeky recluse - not that i'd mind being one

i guess people will say 'just go for it' but if anyone has any personal tricks to overcome this fear, i'd love to know. hmmmm, maybe i should do a set like a mate of mine. he does a really heavy set and gets totally wankered beforehand......then again......maybe not!

*sobs*
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wear some kind of outfit and play a role.

seriously. i was in a band where i dressed up in drag, and it made it loads easier

I dj'd for about 12 years playing residencies in Nottingham and London and I was more terrified when I played @ the first STFU in Manchester. Mainly because it was in front of my peer group, who I knew you couldnt just fool with a few filter sweeps and cheap eq tricks.

Funny thing is they are the most forgiving and appreciative bunch.

Aside from that - take loads of drugs - as many different types and as much as possible. But anally so you dont puke.

haha.

astroid: i love dressing in drag. although i don't really know why i do because the first time i did was when my parents sent me to school on fancy dress day, dressed as my gran!! What were they thinking?? I was 5 years old. Everyong ripped the piss out of me - especially batman but yeah, my friend lee often dresses up for his live gigs...interesting plan!

zanf: yeah, STFU scares me for sure and the gig I did on my birthday (in front of my mates) was similarly scary - so much so, I didn't enjoy it...but I hope STFU would be cool cos seems to be a nice vibe. oh, and if i took drugs for the first time (excluding alcohol of course) i think i might just die - saves doing the gig I guess.

for the week coming up to my first gig i was terrified... like bad. every time i started freaking out about it i tried to get myself back to being productive, by thinking about some way to improve the set or just running through shit in my head. also, i got my confidence up by going through my set and recording it, then playing it back, critiquing, smoking a ton of cigarettes... after getting it half decent on tape a couple times and figuring out all the major problems to watch out for i felt a lot better... if shits going bad, dont be afraid to simplify the set a little bit, make things more manageable.

a couple beers right before my set and i was good to go, still nervous as hell but not necessarily in a bad way

so to sum up, practice instead of stressing out, drink beer before going on

hey korgborglar. thanks for the advice! one question: have you done more gigs since, and if so, how do you find it now.....oh, ok, two questions.

when i did my first gig (the first stfu (well actually there was this thing at a small party in the woods once but....)) i didnt give a fuck what people thought or who was listening or what i looked like- i just wanted to find out what it would sound like coming out of big speakers (good, i thought)

I second the beer, but I seem to drink that anyways.

astroid in drag makes everything easier.

but if he can't make it out there.. i find that the best way for me to not be nervous (and man do i get nervous sometimes).. is to every time i start thinking negatively or worrying about it, just remind myself that there's no reason for it.. i really believe that doing that is the best most permanent way of solving this problem.. you just have to keep being like.. "wait... i don't give a crap what people think! i like making music!" and that kind of stuff.
My first electro gig was disastrous. I was way nervous and for some reason got an insane amount of gas. I didn't have enough proper length cables, and so my guitar unplugged when I went to sweep the wah. I didn't get it plugged till the guitar part of the tune was over.

That said, it was still a great experience. And a few people (whose opinions I really value) really loved it.

2nd show: I had a coke & rum about 40 minutes before. Felt much better, although I still dicked the guitar part. One of my pedals was turned all the way down....no light to see....could barely hear it.....

I'm not sure if it was the alcohol, or the fact that I had done one horrible show and not died, but I felt much better during that 2nd show. I think if you can get with the fact that it might go badly, or you might feel like shit, then you will have killed the giant.

if you are scared here it is exactly what your soul is calling you to do.

just remember that gigs are like airplane landings
any that you can walk away from is a good one, and a little beer beforehand really helps.




ok that last part I just made up

you can't win and you can't lose (@ stfu anyway)

if it sounds smooth - people will be appreciative (but suspect you've been playing mp3's)

if it sounds shit people will respect the fact of just how live you took it (but suspect you've taken too many drugs)

taking too many drugs @ a stfu is definitely a bad idea you end up not giving a fuck what people think or who was listening - & just wanting to find out what your shit sounds like coming out of big speakers! ;)

OK Psychologist mode now -

Question: What is it exactly that you are most frightened of when you play live?

remember to say hello ;)

or go total negative. get up there and say something awful like "hey you fucking pussy wuss wankers, i'll bet you wanna hear something good but you CAN'T because you're fucking stupid and don't deserve it. so dance to this shitty music you fucking idiots. i don't care." people need to hate someone.

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