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It was with a slight twinge of panic that I realized that I am soon to turn the big 3-0 this labor day. I started worrying about whether I’ve accomplished anything with my life so far.
American society puts such a premium on youth. There are a number of really great young musicians and producers out there who have made me think I’ve wasted my life up to this point. That had I been more dedicated as a youngster I would be further than I am.
Even though I got a relatively late start (I only seriously starting writing music when I was 21), I’d like to think that I have a long-term strategy for being a musician. I think I will be making music for a very long time, hopefully the rest of my life. There’s such a vast field of possibilities to explore. I’m happiest when I’m learning something new about music and applying it, and honestly, I think I’ve only hit the tip of the iceberg.
As part of my committment to learning new things, I have decided to take up the cello. Last Friday I rented a decent one and I’m hopefully starting lessons soon (I already picked out a teacher; we were waiting on the cello). I have loved the sound of the cello and have wanted to take lessons forever. I know it’s going to be an uphill battle, but the sound of the cello fits in very well with what I want to do right now, which is to combine it with shoegaze, distortion and feedback. I also think learning more of the classical repetoire and applying myself is going to help me discipline myself more. We’ll see.
Oh yeah, I also have a new blog up at link . Mostly music for right now. I may cover midget porn, if there is enough demand. | |
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jef
Thank you!
This post spoke to me, having just turned 30 myself. congrats on the cello! i've been wanting to learn the concertina, myself. i think you've inspired me to get one!
Happy birthday. i hope it's a good one!
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tantan
Rad, the cello is amazing!
Only 30??? You're just a wee baby!!
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Roshi
You should definitely learn the concertina! I've always loved the bandoleon (is it the same thing?) in Tango, cause, it's well, so sexy sounding.
Can Hott Pink sea shanties be far away? 
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fakeBlooper
if this were the middle ages, you would have already been in like 2 wars and had 5 kids (of which 3 died in infancy). here's to another 30 (years that is... not kids)
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Roshi
fakeBlooper said: "if this were the middle ages, you would have already been in like 2 wars and had 5 kids (of which 3 died in infancy). here's to another 30 (years that is... not kids)"
I probably would've been a peasant living on gruel, with rotting teeth, and who died at the age of 19.
Anyhow, this describes my new determination to a T:
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bla
ill be 30 in october
ive always been lazy and unmotivated but i wouldnt say ive wasted my life because im still alive so thats some kind of achievement
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SenorFrio
Happy Birthday kid! Those doods in the video are probably 40 or something! But, they're... they're... ASIAN! Easy there... Cello! Fawkin RAD!!! Dammit... I just got to the part where they painted the CME controller! Anyway... you've accomplished a hell of alot musically! You've done Roshi solo stuff since right after college... and that stuff is DOPE. Then of course there's Ainu! You got to play REED Ren Fair & Phoenix Fest! Life Death PeBirth! You're new noise projects kick ass. You'll be making music till 2100!
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Fredo
Don't think about age, Roshi. It really is pointless. You go through what you go through to get where you get to in life. Period.
It's all about your will, not your age. Thinking and worrying about age, and whether or not you have made it will only convolute your will. This is easily said than done, however, I often stress myself out about making it, but not as much as when I was younger. My advice: keep physically fit, mentally clear, and try to enjoy your life as it comes. This last part is the one I have problems with, but hell... I can still recommend that, right?
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Fredo
and Happy Birthday!!!
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Roshi
Fredo said: "Don't think about age, Roshi. It really is pointless. You go through what you go through to get where you get to in life. Period.
It's all about your will, not your age. Thinking and worrying about age, and whether or not you have made it will only convolute your will. This is easily said than done, however, I often stress myself out about making it, but not as much as when I was younger. My advice: keep physically fit, mentally clear, and try to enjoy your life as it comes. This last part is the one I have problems with, but hell... I can still recommend that, right?"
Sage advice, Fredo, but like you say, very hard to follow.
I mostly am happy with everything I've done so far...I have come to terms with what I've done, I've done. But I always need to feel like I'm pushing forward. That doesn't necessarily mean that "making it" is part of pushing forward - but that I am coming to terms with what I see on my horizon and trying to realize those goals. The long-term plan is what gives me my hope and joy in everything I do.
I am sitting on a lot of tracks (electro, and otherwise), and I should really just either release them or shop them out...but I had a pretty bad loss of confidence lately. But I just need to get off my ass and do so.
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Roshi
Erg. Sorry about the public naval gazing.
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gasper
i had some stress around my 30th also, it's just a landmark b-day. i think wearing some arm sleeve things like the guy who does the piano solo in that video will prolly make you feel a lot better. they're kind of mideval, so that fits well with the other themes of this post, and you can keep for when you play the ren fair with your cello.
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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FailedSitcom
I think it's really good that you are going to learn the cello, you've taken what began as panic and turned it into something incredibly productive.
Cool blog by the way, I've added it to my favourites.
EDIT: and Happy Birthday!
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Roshi
Thanks for all the kind words, guys. It helps a lot to have everyone's perspectives when I have these moments of panic.
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jdg
happy birthday.
30 was as bad as everyone says its going to be.
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