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About an hour ago I was in my dad's car with 2 of my sisters, we were driving home from seeing the new Harry Potter film [movie : ) ]. I put on a really quite beautiful piece of music - 'Any Other Time' by Thomas Newman, (its in 6 Feet Under, American Beauty etc), this is what came from one of my sister's mouth:
"Dad, you've created a freak! Simon...don't you have any chart music? This hasn't even got a beat."
I'm pretty calm, alot of the time. But for some reason this hit a weak spot, I can't remember a time when i'd been more annoyed.
Sure, people have different music tastes, some don't even like music at all, but to disregard something without listening to it for more than 20 seconds, (and properly listening to it at that) -_-
And it sounds like i'm just pissy because she didn't like my music, it's not that at all. Tbh its more that she said "chart music", as if she's just spoon fed music and has no intent to actually find a music taste for herself. With people like Paris Hilton hitting the charts I really fear for her.
on top of this my life is like a swirling vortex of confusion, with influential people being people who shouldn't be influential, this in turn warping my sense of right and wrong, good and bad, realizing there are very few people I actually respect or like. how amazing and complex everything really is, looking up to the night sky to wonder at how vast everything is, putting your own issues into perspective, i suppose when you've just finished school for the last time and you've got weeks of no commitments or deadlines you start to get thinking. it feels like i've just woken up, really, for the first time ever, and my life until now has just been something like "the matrix".sometimes it's hard to relate myself even to my family because they go about their everyday lives, day after day, week after week, never letting off that there is anything bigger going on in they're heads. watching my sisters really just waste their lives away in front of a tv (no exaggeration), without any outside interests or hobbies. my mind is soaring over worlds :p (no drugs here) and there are so, so many things i want to do.
i'm going to Paris and around France with a friend in a week, which will be good, to get away from everything here. then i'm going to take up archery (the discipline involved is fascinating), and learn me some more defiance ohio songs.
it doesn't matter so much to me to achieve anything that people would look upon and congratulate me for, more so it matters that i can respect myself for the life i live and the person i am, truly.
i suppose em411 has been my outlet, you all seem to be intelligent people, and maybe you can connect with some of what i'm saying from personal experience.
if not i'll stfu xD
i had some more points but i've lost track of my thoughts
and the punctuation is slowly but surely disappearing
maybe i'm going crazy
and by the way, i'm a teenager, and its not one of those "teenage" things...
"ooh the world, ooh is anything real, omfg, :S"
no : P
i may just wince next time i look at this, be nice.
powel/bitbare...just try it ¬_¬
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07/14/07
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papergoose
also, there is a place, several years off, where it doesn't all suck. A place where you can respect your family for their differences, and all people for that, and take joy in the fact that you may be able to show them something beautiful. And reconnecting with your family after years of disconnect because of varying tastes/thoughts/"intelligence" is a wonderful thing. Your sisters will grow older and probably, at least a little, learn to have better taste and appreciate other things, even if only for the fact that their "freak brother" likes them, and they love you.
But keep that fire.
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jdg
there is no such place.
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Zanf
There is such a place.
A place that is terrifying to women. It is said a man will come, the Kwisatz Haderach. He will go where they cannot.
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tylth
nexttime play them some Vsnares and pretend it#s TOP forty
07/16/07
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i just remember car rides with my dad when i would be listening
to aphex or something and he would try and pull over cos he thought
something had fallen off the car.
hilarious
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owl
It's comforting to look back at this from 10 months on, although some of the spelling and punctuation made me wince.
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