i don't really have the personality to be a musician. total introvert, couldn't give a shit about playing onstage. i don't really have the personality to be a composer either, i use abstract reasoning too much, not enough feeling and sensing, to use the meyers-briggs terms.
the archetypes are seemingly set in stone. if you say you make a lot of music, people assume that you're going to be a performer in some sense of the word. and i'm just simply not.
often i feel like there's something wrong with me because of this, like i'm the laziest scientist in the world who couldn't be bothered with actual equations, or like i'm a totally insensitive composer who has no business trying to make art. i couldn't even be an art critic because i don't discriminate well.
and the funny thing about it? i feel like i'm totally right and the world is wrong. lol
SUCK IT HUMANITY
so what are you like? does your musical output match your personality?
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Written June 05 2009 , Tags: self-centered, boring, long
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You just miss the days of playing Harlequin Duck gigs on my folks' driveway. thats why i stick to audio engineering.
enuf science and enuf art, just not enuf money " i don't really have the personality to be a composer either, i use abstract reasoning too much, not enough feeling and sensing, to use the meyers-briggs terms."
what about countless modernist composers. xenakis is the best example (and probably the best-sounding too!) I think you just need to achieve a better synthesis.
A lot of mid 20th century music is boring to me because it's just a boring mind game to these people. Serialism can suck it. Too many of them were beholden to their methods. Messaien to me is the exception. Spectralism is really interesting to me now because it achieves a synthesis of science and art that I find really alarming. I agree that serialism (minus Webern and Messiaen!) is pretty bad on the whole, as was a lot of mid 20th c classical stuff.
Xenakis, again, I think is full of vitality and emotion despite its scientific basis. Spectralism, especially Saariaho is enchantingly good. Messaien is not a serialist, I'm not sure if that was miscommunicated or not, now that I read back.
But anyway, a great deal of Messaien's work was taken from the world around him, he did some amazing things collecting, cataloging, and subsequently using (transliterated) birdsong in his work. Quartet for the End of Time is one of my favorite works by him. At any rate, nothing is set in stone. the wonderful thing about art in the first place is that it is made from the mind of an individual. the "systems" and -isms we catalog things by are nothing but academics. When you start to break down the boundaries, when you really start looking into all these composers' activities, you see that they are much less pigeonholed than a lot of people make them out to be. Ever heard some of Aaron Copland's REALLY experimental avant-garde shit? Most of it is. The crap you hear in the beef commercials and airplane TV ads or whatever, Appalachian Spring, etc.... these were his most popular pieces, EVER. And you'd immediately classify him in the same category as Gershwin or something. But when you really dig deep, Copland was as much of a maverick as Schoenberg or Cage. So I guess my point is that you just need to follow your own instincts, don't let the external definitions shape you. I have a hard time with this at times too, because I don't quite know what it may mean to write a "pop song", or what it is to write "electronica", so if I combine things my OWN way, it becomes neither. But I think that's the point.  curtis roads is a monolith of modern science music for me.
serialism CAN suck it. it's a totally transitional form: playing scrabble with the language of high german romanticism. at least it led to stockhausen and some others finally throwing out the little bewigged 12-tet baby with his rotten bathwater. again, minus webern and messian. and schoenberg. and alban berg, pierre boulez, actually i love it! Yeah, I know Messiaen is not a serialist. But they did take many of his techniques into their arsenal. I was referring to a lot of the mid century composers whose work is
 Academic music was ruled by serialist composers in the universities way too long. They rejected anything that wasn't of that sort. Also: Boulez is an asshole. (I'm just being inflammatory)
Anyway, I would say just to start taking math classes and start understanding how spectral analysis really works, or read something like:
Psychology of Music (Carl Seashore) Music, Sound and Sensation The other big one (the helmholtz one) I think you just need to internalize the math somewhat so it becomes instinctual rather than intellectual (yes, this is an INFP talking) lol infp if i tell you you're wrong you'll tell me i'm missing the point. i married one of your sick breed.
yeah, i'm pretty confused at what i'm trying to do with making music. i'm a performer, but not a musical performer. i love to dance and draw crowds to my original dance. when i make music, i go about it in such a terse and rigid way.
meh, poo loo on the koo koo. astroid said: "lol infp if i tell you you're wrong you'll tell me i'm missing the point. i married one of your sick breed." It's not my fault you were born without a heart. Bru,
if you went back to focusing on being an instrumentalist, you would doubtless be more extroverted in your musicality. right? you're a born, natural composer, a good one. Your outlets are more centered on satisfying your own curiosity, imagination, and exploratory nature. i'm not uncontent with who i am. i probably should have specified that it'd be interesting to hear how people's personalities affect their musics, genre preferences and such.
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